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101106..smlm bkn yg da worst ever day cz dpt g jln2 wif my buddies..kwn since sklh zman hulu kale lg..bes gk even bwk kete smpi naek tembok jmpe india gelak2 cz nk cross jln thenjut2..haha..klaka siot if trigat bnd tu...anyway, thanks guys make the day works!..luv you byk2 la..i dh diskas wif u'll part msing2 utk 'function' i nnt kn..so make it work jgk taw!..make it best day ever!! taw! taw! taw!

buddies : ain, mira n me!!

y i keep on hurtin people i love?

reason :

my heart yg sgt xstabil i dunoe since when..i hurt HIM even bkn sbnrnye slh dya..i xdendam ngn mne2 guy (mybe) tp knpe i alwiz nk hurt HIM..?1 day, bile dya dh xtahan wif ur karenah pdn muke Zulikha Kamil..rase kn la akibat nye..u will hurt mcm bfore..kne tggl mcm tu je.pisang akn bebuah 2 kali if u berterusan bgini wahai my soul..

since ade selisihan phm between u n me my girlfriend..i never pn kua cri hapiness wif sape2..jz smlm i out wif other friends jz to cool myself tu xbmkne saye melupekn anda..mmg nk sgt let u join skali but i'm afraid u xsudi..xbniat pn nk cri u time i ssh..if rse like i find u when i ssh..u such wrong dear..sila mengerti. persahabtan wif u more important to b truth..not a fake relationship

hurtin HER bkn sgt hurt wif ur HIM..dat's y i hurt u..knape xphm2 lg HIS not a gud guy to guidance us fmily..tlg la bfikiran lbih jauh n bernas..think about ur family more than HIM..pls, i BEGGING you..try to solve dis wif fair..hurtin sgt bile u wif HIM..HE like hell to me!!!

if i could turn back time

if mse bleh turn balik..

i wanna be sumone yg useless

cz 4 me..be sumone like dat we makes everyone give more attention towards me

xgune tryin hard to achieve sumtin, achieve sumtin yg sbnrnye not our interest jz utk dptkn attention dr org skeliling o yg disayangi.. it won't jadi pny la..trust me on dat!

be sumone useless sbnrnye byk klebihan nya..

like org keliling akn prhatikn kte n sentiase beri kte peluang utk berubah o bjaye..

like org laen bkata, org yg dh pndai..ade klulusan tggi xperlu byk dbantu cz mereka ade mse dpn yg cerah..

WAT A VERY FALSE STATEMENT!

hdup skrg sume bgantung pada nasib..bkn kertas yg ade cop Kementerian Pendidikan Kerajaan..ape nta..wateva la..bla bla bla..

LUCK yg most IMPORTANT..without luck..hg blaja la tggi mne skeras mane skali pn..tanpe LUCk..u won't get anytin..

org bkata biar bssh blaja dlu, xpe bssh skrg..1day sure akn lbih appreciate sumtin bile dh bjaye..

tp hdup skrg ni.sume tu like so NOTIN!..

skrg ni, xyh blaja ssh2 pn..sure boleh maju n lebih kaye dr org yg blaja stinggi2 n skeras2 nye dgn hanya menggunakan LUCk..

but persoalannya, dimanakah kte dpe mencari LUCK itu?..ade kah supose be sumone yg USELESS so everyone akan perasan kte utk memberi peluang yg cerah scare senang lenang nye o ambik langkah yg lg mudah dengan hanye melupekn maruah dri?..

think about it.

peringatan utk si DIA

sila pergi dgn bhati2..

even i xcare sgt bile u nk g sane dluaran..

tp dalaman sangat la blaenan taw!

harap mengerti

sila selalu igt saye..

even slalu i ckp xigt kt u..

tp tu bkn yg asli

harap phm

sila balik dgn keadaan yg sempurna..

even slalu i ckp hanya nk present & duit

tp tu bkn yg sebnr2 nya..

harap understand

kesimpulan..

harap maklum.

I.M.Y. ...

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SANGAT SANGAT LAH BERBALOI SAYANG!!!

new life.....

korg..at last..korg tw gk kn wat happen 2 me now..hope korg slalu la gv me suport k..now pn i stil tryin 2 forget da past..it's hurt ble tpkse melupekn tp sakit lg mnggu cmni without any respon dr org 2..rite??...

kn snang if dpt lupekn org yg kte syg easily..like he do..lgsg xd brite seems like xpnah noe me..i try 2 hate him tp y i alwiz nmpk gud things about him..xnmpk lgsg ngatif ways..

tp skrg..i try 2 let other man in my life..try 2 forget him by dis guy..tp xtw la pe relation ni would b nnt..mmg sgt2 xready utk other guy in my life cz i alwiz let 'him' in my life..lgsg xnk lpskn..tried so hard 2 let 'him' free tp ssh sgt la..xtw la npe jd cmni....help!help!

luv story 4 eva...

3mggu bfore rye 2008..i met dis guy..scare xsngaje..dat time..my roomate n her scandal bwk kte jln2 kt seremban..pastu her scandal dpt kol from his fwen..suh ambk dya kt rmh..then..kteorg pn g la ambk dya..ndway nk ambk dat guy..almost tbabas cz her scandal(driver dat time) ox nye ke laen..then smpi dpn rmh dya..dya bukak pntu krete dpn n saw me ngn tkjot mcm tkesima la..dya slm2 parents dya, ltak beg kt bonet..ndaway smbung jln2..dya tny nme..singgah kt terminal sje2 tgk bju..ble kte pgang bju yg seksi..dat boy ckp...'jgn beli bju tu..abg xbg tw..haram..'kte juz follow without askin but rse mluat la jgk cz..dya tu spe nk larang2 i rite??

mse tu la bmulenye pknalan wif dat boy..bbrape ari kmudian dya minx no.phone n dpt dr my roomate..e2 pn pas my roomate minx izin n pjuk me dlu..i kol him..minem...1st dlu dya msj gne no.cel..tp kte suh dya tkar..mlm tu jgk la dya tkar no.mxs..so sweet..hehe..kteorg msj lme2 mlm tu..pagi sok nye kteorg sepakat sme2 g klas..cz dya nk tnjuk pkai bju kmeje..kte kn cpt tpikat kt boy yg pkai bju smart like kmeje..lgpun ari tu dya da presentation..so kne pkai cmtu..pagi tu..ngn smgtnye..pegi la bjmpe..mse tu..ina je igt rupe minem..al-maklum la..kte kne tgk muke org byk kali bru bleh igt..rupe2nye..minem pn sme gk..blur.xtw mne 1 kte..hahaha..waktu tu bln puase..slalu tiap ptg g psr rmdhan sme2...tp kte je kne slalu tggu dya cz dya asik lwat je..xtw nk tepati mse lgsg..slalu kte ugut dya..if lwat dtg..kte reject dya..haha..snang cite..1 ptg ni..dh plan nk g psar rmdhan sme2..then nta cmne..pas dya abs mandi leh plak jtuh tgge..pastu tpkse la cancel date tu..so,kte g la psar wif ina je..then ndway kua poli..smbil msj wif him..dya ckp nkk g klinik wif din..so kteorg dcided nk ikut gk..cz i'm so worried dat time..hny Allah jela tw..dup dap dup dap jtung..ble tgk keadaan dya..ksian sgt2..like bnd ni jd bcz of me..muke sdih dya..smpi skrg pn kte stil igt..i make him hurt..so guilty sgt dat time..if kte xugut dya mcm tu msti dya xkelam cmtu kn?..mse tggu dya kne rwat lme btol..sian dya tggu dktor lmbt sgt smpi..rse nk mngamuk je cz bia org sakit lme sgt..8lbh cmtu..bru setel rwat minem..kteorg bukak puase gne air msak jela..bfore blik poli..kteorg g mkn jp..sian..minem xleh mkn cz sakit..pipi kiri dya blubang..dlm kete..dya sandar kpale atas bahu kte biakan je..cz tgk dya tsekse sgt..smpi la time i hv to go back ipoh cz rye...dya anto kte kt trminal..tp time kte nk naek bus..dya lgsg xnk tgk kte..rse sdih sgt..tp afta bus tu grak bru la dya senyum n tgk kte..n xtw nk ucap pe kt dya time tu..at least dya snyum di saat akhir pn..bfore blik ipoh..dya da lmar kte tp i said lps rye lmar blik then i tell him da answer..2mggu cuti wktu tu..rse rndu yg amat kt dya..rse cm nk cpt2 blik p.d..i want to tell him..i luv him so badly now..i'm fall in luv.12 oktober 2008..akhirnye..kteorg jmpe blik..mmg xcited..dya yg ambk plak tu..tp bfore blik p.d kne g rmh dy adlu..da mkn2..ndway g rmh dya..dya lmar me..dya ckp..'sudikh u jge gurl saye??'...hahahahha...mmg klaka gle..so skema..dya lgsg xtw nk lamar org cz 1st time dya nk kpel..tp i nver bg answer dat time yet..then g sne jmpe her mum..rily mnakutkn,,trutame skali his bro..tny mcm2 cm xpuas ati plak wif me..dya tny..'npe ko ske adq aku??'..then i tell,..'spe yg ske spe sbnrnye ni??',..mmg weird cz dat time..xkpel o anytin pn lg.time nk blik p.d...abg dya yg anto naek avanza rmai2 wif minem's fwens..mse tu la..i gv him da anwer..i tell him..'yes'...simple n mudah dphamikn??..hahah...bmule la pcintaan kteorg even bru je knal..tp sbbkn dya sgt pramah bwt kteorg jd rpat..slese sgt ngn dya..yg pnting..dya la da only boy yg leh bwt kte lupe lgsg bout my 1st luv..kuatkn aura minem??...sgt klaka org nye..bwt kte slalu hapi being wif him..sumenye bes sgt time tu..kteorg slalu g overnite..tp rmai2 la slalunye..g mlake,jhor..cmtu jela...zman rmaje jgn dpersiekn rite??...enjoy pny enjoy..dh tbe abs sem 1...dat time lbh krg bpe bln gk la xdpt nk bjmpe..sdih xpyh nk ckp la...tp i alwiz hug him bfore i blik ipoh...wktu sem 2..kte tpkse msuk rmh sewe dlu....brg dh la byk gle..nsi baek da minem..sgt2 mringankn beban,...rmh sewe kt bgnn bru dpn poli je..,mse tu..mmg tiap kali mkn mlm msti nk bsme pny..pstu ble bosan2 ske mrayap g seremban..sem 2 bes skit cz minem bwk kete kt poli so..pjg n jauh lg la pjlnn kte..hahaha..if nk g pkan p.d o nk kua duit ke ape ke..msti dya yg byk tlg..mmg btol2 nid him in my life..i trust him..tp kteorg sgt2 la kuat gdo wktu tu..mmg kpel xleh rpt2 sgt kn??msti kn timbul probs..sda 1 mse tu..hmpir je nk break..dya nk sgt blik seremban cz nk jmpe n ambk abg dya..n kte plak xbg dya blik cz dat week should b my week,,gdo pny gdo..last2 dya pegi jgk blik seremban..kte yg dgil ni plak..ugut dya if xdtg blik jmpe kte then kte lari rmh sorg2..dh la wktu tu tgh mlm..tp last2 i ajk wana tlg teman..bajet nk g tluk kemang..dh smpi jln bsr..tbe2 minem kol tny kte kt mne..tgk2 dya da kt dpn rmh sewe kte..sgt tharu btol..dya dtg jgk..mybe bcz syg kn??...pastu dya suh msuk dlm kete..ngn wana2 skali kne angkut gk..hahha...dya bwk g tluk kmang n time tu kte kne bleter p i noe dya maen2 je..but rily hapi cz he willin dtg cpt cz wury bout me..tp ksian gk c mcm mlampo pakak suh dya yg dh msuk highway dtg blik to me..spjg kpel ni..kte ksar btol wif him..dya slalu kne sepak, cubit,leter from me..n kte ni sgt2 kras kpale..suh nk ikut ckp dya..tp sbnrnye ati nk ikut kate dya tp ble bckp jd laen plak..dat's y he alwiz get hurt by me..poor him..tp yg dya patut tahu..i rily luv him..kteorg slalunye g beli 100plus,nips,mentos, junkfood..then lpak kt tepi pntai tluk kemang..pastu pas kte dpt je asrma..mse j dh thad utk bjmpe..dat time nk jln2 pn kne ikut mse..dh bpe bln kpel..then asik gdo jela kjenye..dh byk kali dya minx break..tp i xnk..asal la boy cpt sgt ckp kate ptus..mcm org xd pasaan btol..2 april his besday..tp smggu bfore besday dya..kte ajk dya teman g pkan p.d..alasan ckp aini nk beli hadiah for sumone..pdhal nk beli utk dya..mmg kne tpu bulat2 la..pastu bpakat plak wif bf aini..suh dya beli nasi pataya..tulis gne sos 'hapi beday'...sweet kn??...tgh mlm tu jgk suh bf aini anto nasi tu wif hadiah..dh la time tu ujan..rso gk la surprise tu xmjadi..tp alhamdullilah..sgt2 mjadi..cz tgh mlm i wish kt dya n dat time xsangke bf aini tgh ade kt dpn minem anto brg2 tu..mmg kbtulan yg bgs..mmg dya tharu sgt..hapi tgk ddya hapi..tp sok nye..ptgnye kteorg jmpe..n gdo la plak tp dh lupe dh gdo psl ape..sori2..pastu kn..da cuti half-sem..dya g sarawak jmpe sdare mare sne..time tu ssh nye nk kontek dya..tp pas blik poli..he met me..then bg glang manik from sarawak..rily appreciate it..i stil pkai until now..tp kn tali dya ske tcabut..tp yg sweet nye minem kn btolkn nye blik..pastu cuti lg..nta la cuti ape..dh lupe..lbh krg smggu gk la..tp time kte blik kt p.d wktu 17 mei..then,minem ambk kte..kte gtw dya kte xnk blik asrma..bmati2an kte xnk gk blik asrma..last2 dya akur n bwk kte g jln2 kt p.d area pntai..tp kua wif his fwen gk la..sbnrnye..kte xnk blik asrma cz tkot kwn2 kte kjekn kte cz 18mei is my besday..then tghmlm 2 kt dlm kete smbil ujan agk rintik..tepat kul12..minem ngn kwn dya wish besday kt kte..gne roko pganti lilin..smbil nyanyi lgu hapi besday..hahaha...so weird care celebrate cmtu..tp i will rmbember alwiz.....sok nye blik kt poli rupe2nye..kwn2 xigt pn kt my besday..tp mlm 2..dyaorg dh igt..abs kte kne simbah ngn air softlan xpired n nescafe,...sengal gle..time 2 la..nset kteorg sme rosak xcept han..lucky her..haha...slalu lpak ngn minem kt pntai..x pn teman dya karoke..etu jela kjenye..wlaupn mcm bengang gk la..cz adik nyanyi lgu yg high tone..mmg la suare sdap gk la..tp dh dgr kuat sgt..pekak la jd nye..tensen gk..tp bes tgk dya hapi..tp kte slalu bwt muke time tu..haha..sian minem..kteorg byk konflik gle time dh nk abs sem2..bknnye ape..kte xsggup nk bpisah ngn dya bwt 1sem..tp dya kte tgk releks je..mcm xksah pn if kte da o not..mmg mdatangkn mrh..tp kteorg janji..bfore kte blik ipoh..kteorg kn spent time tgether spenuhnye..mmg jd knyataan..shari suntuk ngn dya..bg dya rse mkn slurpee..n aiskrim..so dya kn igt sme bnd ni cz xd org kot yg bwt cmni kt dya..mmg sdih yg amat tp kte nk akhir jmpe ngn pnuh cerie n syg..afta kte hug dya bwt kali akhir,..then kte naek la bus..tggl kn dya kt sermban..time tu dya msj ckp sad sgt..tp kte pn sdih sgt time tu jz Allah jela tw..tp nk bwt cmne kn..dh kpel ngn org yg jauh..ble dh bjauh..mmg mcm2 ugaannye..smkin lme minem mkin krg msj kte..he said..xnk msj slalu tkot nnt rndu btmbh..tp i nid his msj so kte tw he still here wif me..mcm tu la kteorg..da jgk kte xmsj dya utk smggu..sje tgk dya dh msj o alert bout me ke x..tgk2 lm smggu jz da 2 msj je dya bg..mmg hurt..tp afta a week i kol him back n ckp kt dya nk kte bwt cmtu lg x..then dya ckp..xpyh la..hhahah..tw tkot kn??..tp pangai dya brubah la tp kjp je kteorg bebaik then gdo blik...mmg penin situation cmni..a week bfore kteorg prktikal dya rjin msj cz dya ckp nnt mybe kteorg lg bjauhn cz bz,,...tp sbnrnye..dya yg bz pastu..i alwiz hv time for him..alwiz...last2 kte tensen..kte pn jrang msj dya gk..smpi bln puase..tp kte da anto kad rye jz 4 him..shari sblom rye bru dya dpt..time tu dya kol me minx sori n wish skmt ari rye..tp kte xwish pn kt dya cz kte nk minx sori pagi rye..pagi rye sok nye..lgsg kte xdpt kontek dya..mmg sdih nye..jz dpt wish n minx sori gne msj je..dya plak xreply pn my msj..tp kte anto kueh rye utk dya tp ble smpi kt sermban..kueh2 tu dh bkecai..hahaha..smggu snyapkn dri..1day kte kuatkn smgt utk kol dya..27.9.2009..ptg time kte kol tu..sgt2 mesre...kteorg ckp smpi igt dunie..then kte suh dya topup maen msj wif me..pastu dya ckp...ok tp ptg skit la..then kte pn stuju...smpi kul 10lbh tggu dya tp dya xmsj2 pn..last2 kte msj tmy npe xmsk kte lg..then dya ckp later dya msj cz da hal..nnt dya gtw pe yg jd..smpi kul 1lbh pagi..28.9.2009...bru dya msj kte..then dya gtw tlg kwn dya pny adq da org kco..sbnrnye nye kte mrh dya mule2 maen2 je..tp dya plak anggap serius..slalunye dya xnggap serius pn..mlm tu 1st time mcm2 minem gtw bout his feel..tp yg sdih nye..i hurt him alot sgt slame ni..dya dh la pnat2 blik rmh trus msj kte pastu kte plak mrh2 dya..last2 ble dya dh mletup..utk sekian kali..dya minx ptus..scare serius..pastu dya trus snyapkn dri wlaupn kte dh pjuk dya mcm2 care..mmg mraung la..gle kte jd nye time tu..kte xtw nk ngadu kt spe..kwn2 rpt kte pn xtw..sok nye kte try pjuk dya lg..i kol him tp dya ckp konfem nk break..i cn't do anytin lg..even i said anytin pjuk pn sme xjd..dya jz la yg slalu bwt kte rse bnyawe..sgt3 sygkn dya..even dh break ni..dya tetap org yg pling kte syg..i nver blame him..sme nye mmg btol my fault..dat's y i nver wan to forgive myself..kte xdgr pe2 brite psl dya lg..sumpahnye..kte sgt2 rndukn dya..kte anto kt minx sori..tp xtw dya dpt ke x..lgsg dya xaccept my sori...mmg bsr gle slh kte kt dya..sgt2 nyesal ngn ape yg blaku..tp ni bkn yg kte nk..pe2 pn...now i stil waitin for him to take me back as his lover..etu yg slalu kte doakn..korg tlg la doakn skali k??so..my luv story smpi kt sni...